Life's Bitch

When did I get to the point in my life that I was no longer myself, no longer important, no longer anything but the secretary/caregiver of this particular household? I have no influence on society, I contribute nothing, and do nothing of any importance. If I am not right in the middle of doing laundry, changing a diaper, or washing dishes than I am therefore a lazy piece of shit that does nothing!

How did this happen? Was it the moment that I stopped working and began caring for my child and running my household? Is it because I don't bring any money into the household? Maybe it is because no one would notice if I suddenly up and died until my husband needed a ride home. I can just picture Joli screaming and throwing the ultimate of all tantrums because I won't get up from my expired state and give her her binky. Is that all it would take? A chauffeur and a nanny and I would no longer exist? I guess there would have to be a few more people involved. A maid, a cook, a dog trainer, a laundry service, a maintenence service, a gardening service, a diaper service, a personal shopper, a seamstress, an accountant, a secretary, a plumber, a carwash, a decorating service, and a hooker. That about covers it. Unless of course the maid doesn't do dishes or clean litter boxes. Yep, I'm completely replacable.

Of course, since I don't work or bring in any money, it's completely unimaginable that I wouldn't be doing at least one of these tasks at any given moment. Right now I'm being put on the list of most horrible people ever, simply because I'm sitting down and writing something about myself. Not to say that it is anyone person's fault. It is simply where we are at in society. All these women spent decades trying to be "equal" to men, so we now not only have to be resposible for all of the above mentioned tasks we must also get a job to "contribute". I'm totally happy for us women that we have so many equal opportunities, but what about those of us that want to stay home and raise our own children? What if we don't think that working a full time job and then coming home to be a full time wife and mother is such a great thing?

I guess it doesn't matter. It's the same arguement that I've heard every other stay at home mom try to make. File this away with all the other letters from unappriciated, overworked women that are trying to make themselves feel like they're worth something even though they do nothing.